My Girls!

We sat in a room waiting and Jeff kept asking me if I was nervous.  I was, I wasn't sure how the girls were going to react.  The director told us the girls were waiting outside the door shaking with aniticipation.   We were all waiting for the social workers to be present for us to see each other.  Finally, the social worker arrived, they opened the door and Lena came in first.   Her face lit up and she smiled a smile of pure joy.  She ran and threw her arms around me.   In that moment all doubt was erased from my heart and I knew she wanted this as much as we did.   She then ran to Jeff and gave him a huge hug too.   Sveta also gave us both hugs, she was a little shy as she doesn't know us very well but you could see on her face that she was excited and happy.   We were in a room with their teachers, the social worker, the attorney and the orphanage director.  The girls were intimidated to say the least but they kept looking at us and smiling.  It was so cute.  They had to write a letter saying they wanted to be adopted by us.  The teachers took a minute and told us about the girls and let us ask any questions.   Lena's teacher said that after returning from the U.S. she told every one about us and has been waiting anxiously to return to our home.   Sveta's teachers cried and said she is going to miss her.  It was nice to know that she is loved here.  

After our meeting we were able to spend time with the girls.  They would not let us out of their sight.  They took us and showed us to all their friends and they held our hands and hugged us non stop.  We walked to the store the four of us hand in hand.  Lena kept looking up at me and smiling.  She told me several times in Russian that she loved me.   Sveta loved Jeff and grabbed his hand and mine every time we walked anywhere.  They kept saying their name with our last name and laughing they were so happy.  Lena Rast and Sveta Rast and then they would look at me to make sure they were saying it right.  They feel like mine, it is a feeling I have never felt before.  We are still not sure what will happen with Sveta, bit I can't bare the thought of leaving her behind.  Keep us in your prayers.   

The girls were sweet and full of love.  The time went by so fast.  We had to leave too soon and I miss them all ready.  

Tomorrow we have to go to the orphanage that Sveta's brother is in which is two hours away, so we may not be able to see the girls.  They will be disappointed, they kept asking us what time we would be coming back tomorrow.  Something happened to my heart today and I am sure it will never be the same.  Is this how it feels to be a mother?